Post by neo on Jan 19, 2007 7:48:03 GMT -5
I was aware of Force as a child and slowly forgot to see or use it at all thanks to all the people around me.
as I developed my ego the more immersed in illusion I became.
but part of me, a part more bigger than the physical one and more real than the ego, always was there. I do remember seeing energies of surrounding things which I then as a child was not conscious of seeing.
But at the age of 13 I started with meditation, and the result was even more pressure from my step-parents. they could not stand my simple happiness and freedom thus they dragged me around with force like a doll so that they could play normal family in front of everyone.
at the age of 14 I discovered the jedi sites, I immediately began making training schemes with levels and attributing abilities and skill with each level.
I practiced meditation, physical exercises and many more.
but I quickly left those levels as it I simply did not liked them... I knew no reason but my being just rejected them. and that is where my energy self had again woken up.
it woke up to a world of terror and as I had no one to guide me to balance and I did not know it I used the ways of ego to do some things... disasters ensued in my life. up to point where I wanted to simply get away from this hell.
but my knowledge about the jedi sites kept me going. I saw hope.
and at some time I discovered the raelian movement(www.rael.org) from there I learned practical ways to just be happy and live a life I want. then came the books of the Carlos Castaneda. And soon my first encounter of what is called an Ally, and after that followed a plan of my energy self to go to forest and learn those things...
and to forest I went.
I lived 1,5 year in mountains of Alpujarras. the first day there I was hungry and ate a platefull of ganja energy balls. I did not know what is ganja... I sat with other people around the fire and everything was ok. Until I thought to go to my tent. when I was walking to my tent I saw myself looking down on my feet from much higher point than my head... I also felt the energy flowing through the center of my body, non-stop. When in my tent, I felt a strong massage on top of my head(corrected here) caused by the flow traveling through the center of my body. I also heard a humming noise and looked out if there should be a UFO there... nope it came from that flow through me.
And then through practice of meditations and shamanic rituals and drumming and speaking with trees and dwarves, trolls and dragons. I learnt a lot about what I can do.
from the year 2004 I stopped smoking weed and proceeded to learn more. I had no problems following what I call the jedi ideals. I just knew what they are and their following for me was natural. If I was thinking about them then I ended always up with "ofcourse I want to help everyone and learn always and know the Force and serve for the greater good rather than momentarily desires"
The first trilogies and the existence of Jedi Academy encouraged me to not only be this good person I always have been but also train to pass the illusionary limits of us.
Given that everyone has their understanding and preferences I can understand why one wants to follow a code from KOTOR. But may you see that not all want to follow it as a jedi.
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You are like a container connected with pipes to Force, but these pipes are not linear nor limited. Though you can use what there is like pipes. And when their taps are opened, will bring you what you want to yourself.
as I developed my ego the more immersed in illusion I became.
but part of me, a part more bigger than the physical one and more real than the ego, always was there. I do remember seeing energies of surrounding things which I then as a child was not conscious of seeing.
But at the age of 13 I started with meditation, and the result was even more pressure from my step-parents. they could not stand my simple happiness and freedom thus they dragged me around with force like a doll so that they could play normal family in front of everyone.
at the age of 14 I discovered the jedi sites, I immediately began making training schemes with levels and attributing abilities and skill with each level.
I practiced meditation, physical exercises and many more.
but I quickly left those levels as it I simply did not liked them... I knew no reason but my being just rejected them. and that is where my energy self had again woken up.
it woke up to a world of terror and as I had no one to guide me to balance and I did not know it I used the ways of ego to do some things... disasters ensued in my life. up to point where I wanted to simply get away from this hell.
but my knowledge about the jedi sites kept me going. I saw hope.
and at some time I discovered the raelian movement(www.rael.org) from there I learned practical ways to just be happy and live a life I want. then came the books of the Carlos Castaneda. And soon my first encounter of what is called an Ally, and after that followed a plan of my energy self to go to forest and learn those things...
and to forest I went.
I lived 1,5 year in mountains of Alpujarras. the first day there I was hungry and ate a platefull of ganja energy balls. I did not know what is ganja... I sat with other people around the fire and everything was ok. Until I thought to go to my tent. when I was walking to my tent I saw myself looking down on my feet from much higher point than my head... I also felt the energy flowing through the center of my body, non-stop. When in my tent, I felt a strong massage on top of my head(corrected here) caused by the flow traveling through the center of my body. I also heard a humming noise and looked out if there should be a UFO there... nope it came from that flow through me.
And then through practice of meditations and shamanic rituals and drumming and speaking with trees and dwarves, trolls and dragons. I learnt a lot about what I can do.
from the year 2004 I stopped smoking weed and proceeded to learn more. I had no problems following what I call the jedi ideals. I just knew what they are and their following for me was natural. If I was thinking about them then I ended always up with "ofcourse I want to help everyone and learn always and know the Force and serve for the greater good rather than momentarily desires"
The first trilogies and the existence of Jedi Academy encouraged me to not only be this good person I always have been but also train to pass the illusionary limits of us.
Given that everyone has their understanding and preferences I can understand why one wants to follow a code from KOTOR. But may you see that not all want to follow it as a jedi.
-----------------------------
You are like a container connected with pipes to Force, but these pipes are not linear nor limited. Though you can use what there is like pipes. And when their taps are opened, will bring you what you want to yourself.